1. |
Painful Realms
04:03
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Loneliness is upon me
Approaching depression, I cry
Go
Ignoring my own wish for support
Enjoying the misery
Remembering the days of old
When she was with me
Oh, she was with me
When the flame was extinguished, so was I
No wish to live since then, I died inside
Pounding out aggression on myself
Self-torment
In my own reality
Away from the rejection
Suicide was my way out and I feel so cold
I never knew it could feel so good when I'm all alone
It's getting dark as I take my life in this blissful way
I dry my tears, close my eyes, and realize that today was a good day
Of a life once mine
Remembrance of innocence lost
Remembrance of lust at dawn
Repugnance
I fucking hate this
Relying on my integrity
I have none
Relying on my integrity
I have none
Dying, I dream of the love, for which I strived
With every tear, a salute to my worthless life
Digesting the rancid taste of love denied
Losing all my hope
I cried for the last time
I turn it into rage
A broken man's masquerade
Dealing with all the pain
I died on that day
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2. |
Encountering Delusions
04:34
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I'd love to dine upon thine eyes
Encountering delusions, I cry
Subconsciously wanting someone to end my life
Crying out to an uncaring world and I'm failing miserably
Dying
Dreaming
Sleeping
Inside my head
Dying
Dreaming
Sleeping
Inside my head
Inside my head
All that's left, our memories of what once was and the thoughts of what could've been
All that's left are memories of what once was and the thoughts of what could've been
Encountering delusions
To OD is my ecstasy
I feel the touch of death
Dealing with my misery
I'm gasping for a breath
I wallow in depression
Oh, how my wrists have bled
Not coping with reality
To die's my life's request
Have I lost all trust?
Have I forgiven?
No
Have I forgotten?
No
Will I ever?
Dying
Dreaming
Sleeping
Inside my head
Dying
Dreaming
Sleeping
Inside my head
Inside my head
No
I'd love to dine upon thine eyes
Encountering delusions, I cry
Subconsciously wanting someone to end my life
To OD is my ecstasy
I feel the touch of death
Drowning in my misery
I'm gasping for a breath
I wallow in depression
Oh, how my wrists have bled
Not coping with reality
To die's my life's request
Encountering delusions
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3. |
As Reality Fades
03:35
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How much will you bleed for me?
Pledge your soul, eternally
The obsession burns in me
From your sweet ecstasy
As reality, it fades away
So does it, the unbearable pain
Lost is the hurt and sorrow
A state of serenity's gained
Clouding thoughts of tomorrow as reality, it fades away
No
How much will you bleed for me?
Pledge your soul, eternally
The obsession burns in me
From your sweet ecstasy
I'm drowned in sorrow
I'm drowned in sorrow
Oh, no
Oh, no
How much will you bleed for me?
Pledge your soul, eternally
The obsession burns in me
From your sweet ecstasy
Yeah
Yeah
No
Oh, no
As reality, it fades away
As reality, it fades away
Yeah
It fades away
Yeah
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4. |
State of Aggression
03:52
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Organized religion let me down
Jesus and God are full of shit
Turned against all that preach
I'm lashing out, with a clenched fist
The dawn of the solstice
The darkness of nothing
Pleasure in beating down the pure
Motivated by nothing more than that fucking, blessed whore
I'm reveling in Christ's demise
Salvation?
The dawn of the solstice
The darkness of nothing
The darkness of nothing
I stopped kidding myself years ago
Christianity's a joke
Denouncing that Jew and all hope
I wish to see your God dethroned
Outcast by society
I dream of that day
When the earth's occupied by my Lord, the fallen angel
A state of aggression
Laughing at the feeble-minded
I'm pissing on the cross
Arms outstretched in mockery
The Nazarene's downfall's my lust
Downfall's my lust
I am sworn to the oath
Infatuated with believers' suffering
Retribution for my sins
The only pleasure I get
It's the only pleasure I get
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5. |
Darkened Dimensions
03:42
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I try to hide my feelings inside
Away from reality
There's a place I like to hide
Away from everything
A place to myself
Take me away from here
Inside I'm safe
A dark place to hide
A place to myself
When I'm inside
I try to ease my pain
To escape reality
Won't ever die again
I try to hide my feelings inside
Away from reality
There's a place I like to hide
Away from everything
A place to myself
Take me away from here
Inside I'm safe
A dark place to hide
A place to myself
When I'm inside
I try to ease my pain
To escape reality
Won't ever die again when I'm inside
I didn't mean to cause you pain
I'm sorry
But, it's hard to deal with my own pain
Oh God, how I've tried
Fuck
When I'm inside
I'm inside
Intoxicate reality
Leave this earth
My heart is bleeding as it is breaking
I have shed many tears
Won't someone please help me?
I'm trying to be happy
To be at one with myself
It is all up to me
It is what I make of it
Inside I'm safe
A dark place to hide
A place to myself
When I'm inside
I try to ease my pain
To escape reality
Won't ever die again
When I'm inside
No
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6. |
Decline of Sanity
04:45
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And now I close my eyes
All my dreams are liquefied
And now I close my eyes
All my dreams are liquefied
If you could see inside of me
Or see the things I see
You'd have to wonder why
Acid tears are what I cry
And now the shit comes down
You'll never keep me down
You'll never keep us down
Then some fiend tries to get high
Loves it much, but he don't know why
What these fools must realize is that their shit will end in their demise
Gotta get me some of that love
Inside
I see unheard of
Capsized
I speak unheard of
Inside
I know unheard of
Capsized
I'll die with no love
Inside
Capsized
No lies
I try
All my dreams are liquefied
If you could see inside of me
Or see the things I see
You'd have to wonder why
Acid tears are what I cry
Fuck yeah
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7. |
Canon in Weed
01:56
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Rodney: "Ha, ha. Alright, man. Let's do it, man."
Joe: "...Let's hear Canon in Weed."
Joe: "Yeah-ah, beeyatch."
Rodney: "Hmhmhm, that's some funny shit."
Brian: "Cough"
Elan: "Cough. That's some good shit."
Joe: "Yeah-uh.
Brian: "Cough"
Joe: "Would you like a glass of water?"
Rodney: "Hmhmhm, that's some funny shit."
Joe: "That one sounded good."
Brian: "Oh, my dear lord."
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Apathy (Colorado) Aurora, Colorado
Mile High Metal band from Colorado, USA. Formed in 1996. Went on indefinite hiatus in 2011.
Not the rapper.
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