Blood Reigns Over A Pathetic World

by Apathy (Colorado)

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warchrist30 Will be forever grateful for the singer following me on bandcamp and leading me to this! A unique and powerful experience. I don't know what to even call it besides awesome. Best attempt: Melodic Progressive/Thrash/ Grunge/Death Favorite track: For This I Bleed [Edit].

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1.	On Second Thought 05:43	lyrics	buy track
Tainted by things I hear and see So, please just let me be All of you are liars Two-faced people talk their shit I want no part of it My respect is dying I'm trying to rid myself of all bullshit Why do you constantly feel the need to try and belittle me? Talk shit about me all you want, there's no effect on me Talk shit for nothing No one Nobody cares or listens anyway So, why keep trying? Freak out 1, 2, 'round it goes Like a virus Hot air from your face Fuck you, kindly You fucking worthless wastes of space Freak out 1,2 fuck all you ugly people Everywhere, I see ugly intentions and a ton of shit-spewing pussies They're nothing Leave me be Lay down your immature reactions Insecurities No one needs beings like yourselves And you can't let go Can't let go Reap what you sow You all show we've got a long, long way to go Look at you Look at yourselves I'm sorry for all of you Why? Look what I found, a bunch of clowns They're nothing but dumb-shits They're dead to me Giving all of me for these songs Giving all of me is that so wrong? No On second thought, I won’t Or, I don't On second thought I don't want to know On second thought Giving all of me for no one Can I give myself what I deserve? No On second thought, I don't want to know
2.	Another Summer Dying 07:33	lyrics	buy track
The blue that is me I've found no peace around me I've drowned Only to be brought back to my feet I've been for so long, hurting and I'm wrong again Slowly fading away So many frustrating feelings I can't be who they want me to be I can't feel you with me No longer am I free to feel Push all this hatred inside I bleed for these uncaring things Beyond me Treading softly Another summer dying If I said nothing's wrong, then I was lying again Absorbing bits of nothingness So many frustrating feelings I can't be who they wanted me to be I can't feel you with me No longer am I free to feel This can't be real Why God, do you give all this hatred to me? Try to figure things out I can't take no more No, I can't please you all, or myself I don't know if it's me, or if it's been too long It's gone on too long for me to see What's wrong with me? Push it down You don't need to feel a thing Break me down Breaking things Pain, that I feel What's my deal? Pain So, break me down Break it down Pain Over me, like a dark cloud Pain So, break me down Break it I cannot feel what you feel, what you see, now I cannot feel So lay me down Lay me down I cannot feel what is real What's the deal? I cannot feel So break me down Bring me down Down Cold-breaking down Down 'Cause I'm breaking down Take all this hatred and try to figure things out I can't take no more No, I can't please you all or myself I don't know if it's me, or it's been too long It's gone on too long for me to see For me to see, the shortcomings of me What's wrong with me? Pull me out of myself Please don't leave me be, while I'm breaking down on my knees Don't leave me, please Just leave me be Just leave me be Please, just dust me off and put me back on my feet I cannot ever be anything to me Try to understand I didn't want this to be It just is, and I can't change that fact, you see Breathing slowly I can't care No more Life is fair No more Can't repair No more Trust, aware no more Can't you see that this can no longer be? I try and try, and try It just comes back to me
3.	Damn the Bottles (Psycho, Abusive Fuck) 07:16	lyrics	buy track
Misplace your blame Innocence ripped from me Dry your tears Come on dear, please don't cry Your fears I see them inside your eyes Let's play a fun, little game I made I swear, it's fun for the whole family Your mom left me because of him She's wrong She can't be in love with him She's gone She took everything with him The love The trust The worth The blood The lust The lust Years of pain Coupled with strain All the blame's been placed on me Hopeless Hopelessly reaching out for someone to help me I bleed Filling a need Trying not to scream Damn me to a life of shit Every day's the same I have to go through the pain of this mental bliss you take away from me I just want to say, fucking get out of my face I don't need you constantly harassing me Just go away Why won't you please go away? I can no longer handle what you do to me Look at this face, full of pain and of disgrace This is the last day of my sanity Pain Someone help me Fly away Fly away Someday Pain Someone help me 'Cause I can no longer deal with me Someone help me 'Cause I 'Cause I I 'Cause I'm sick of this Every day's the same I have to go through the pain of this mental bliss you take away from me I just want to say, fucking get out of my face I don't need you screaming Beating Bleeding the life right out of me Screaming Beating Abusing And you raped my fucking mind Everything has gone wrong for me My well-being was gone before I had a chance to be a being Fly away Fly away someday Someday Some time, other than now I look around me and see the failure in me In me Now that I see the damage in me I'm falling to my knees in shame I've tried to do what's right All this, in spite of me failing miserably Once again The shame Who is to blame? Someone's got to care for me But they won't So, watch me bleed Turning into the negative Caring for nothing at all Blurring the lines of reality Into the bottle There's nothing left for me at all Damn the bottle Feed the beast Stop Feed the beast Stop caring Slow release of Slow release of anger I can't stop this Try to cage it It will come, sooner or later Run Feed the beast won't Feed the beast won't Feed the beast won't Feed the beast Won't stop
4.	Last Breath 05:39	lyrics	buy track
I'm dying tonight I see you in the night and I love to look into your eyes This sensation I feel inside, is like nothing I've felt in my life You're always on my mind And I can't help it, even though I try This anguish I feel inside, is like nothing I've felt in my life Like nothing I felt in my life Don't end this night Dying tonight I'm lonely Dying tonight I'm lonely I'm greedy for you I need you to be my one true If you doubt me I won't blame you Just know that what I say is for you It's all for you Everything for you Don't end this night because I'm dying tonight I'm crying Rejections, alive Attracting black from white Rejections, alive Attracting black from white One last breath and I'm through The pain I get from you, is like no other I refrain Gone away Not today Releasing your pain It's gone away Not today Your games They won't phase me No way And your Your pain has gone away Away for today For today Your last breath of pain The past has gone away Gone away Last breath of pain
5.	Blood Reigns Over Kindling Embers, Nevermore 08:48	lyrics	buy track
Low Head on hands I scorn my life Take me home All alone Reading letters from home I miss my loved ones I'm cold My foes surround me They froze, as they lost their lives for this The cause The reason we're all here To put an end to their fears This fight Is it ours? No matter 'Cause we've come too far to stop I miss my wife I miss my kids I hope that I can get through this, unscathed No pain No regrets Please, God help me Born Breathing new life into this ravaged country of soulless swine Solving other countries' problems Even though, we've got ours at home Foreign policies, in the name of diplomacy Or could it be, their interests based on greed? No All we know is what we're told Fighting for our lying government Impose their righteousness Cleaning up the mistakes that were made over ten years ago Now's the time to right their crimes against humanity and their own fucking kind Why can't this madness end? So we can focus on the ills of this failing, rotting society The ills of this failing world Here I am with my rifle in hand I fear no man Except the monster that I am Losing sanity Blood reigns over kindling embers All the pain stays with me for life Never to fade I'm not to blame for unwanted war games I can't seem to get my hands clean I pray that this is all just a dream Lost Diminishing an evil regime They're lost I have found the inner-will to push it all down Gone Gone Gone are the thoughts that this is wrong So wrong Wrong Blood rains over all that I have found It's gone Normalcy's gone I'll keep on fighting until it's done Pray Blood reigns over kindling embers My misfortune Their loss They've lost Can't reveal the damage I have gone through My real self Now, is gone It's gone Can't believe what my eyes have seen I have lost my innocence, now Praying for an end to everything Resolution is all that I can hope for now
6.	Premonitions of Winter 03:55	lyrics	buy track
Lies And your god is failing Try to resort to something Giving of yourself daily Just try to Try to see yourself bleeding Alive Life can be deceiving Rely on a faith that fails you People like you will never know the truth in what they're believing Why can't they stop the pain of grieving? Always hoping for that other something Knowing damn well, you'll never find it Try to see yourself bleeding One lie can keep you dreaming Rely on a faith that fails you People like you will never know the truth Sickening display of unwarranted guilt Betray your force-fed thoughts and free your will Walk outside the boundaries of everyday life Take an introspective glance at what comes out at night Soul searching Finding nothing Priests' lying Eternally searching Christ is dying Christ is dying Searching Searching Searching for the truth under all this lies and propaganda bullshit You've got to live your life for yourself So why don't you stop trying to be just like everybody? Be yourself Don't let it be decided You've got endless possibilities So why accept weak sensibilities? Your lord is crying On his crucifix, he's left dying In all their bullshit You're left confiding all your sins to a man in hiding Christ is Christ is Christ is dying
7.	Mourning Sacrifice 06:04	lyrics	buy track
Your sovereign company For the wrong things I have done, I'm sorry You're such a lovely dream that I keep for eternity Now sleep You're watching over me I feel your inspiration But sadly, I couldn't be there for you on your last day And I feel it I feel estranged I've got an itch to rid this false pain When everything's restrained Your sovereign company is the only one for me Your silhouette beheld beauty for me, on your last day You're an angel that I keep Some mornings I feel grief I truly miss you Sometimes I weep But we'll soon meet again When I'm free Love-filled memories I'll keep Your sovereign company encompasses me Your silhouette beheld beauty on your last day Fade away I don't have to worry because I'm ready for my last day I don't have to worry I'm ready I don't have to worry I don't have to worry and I'll fade away Your sovereign company For the wrong things I have done, I'm sorry You're such a lovely dream that I keep and your loss was such a tragedy Your sovereign company has lifted me Always Your sovereign beauty's supreme to me
8.	D.V.8 06:01	lyrics	buy track
Life My mistakes burn Deviate Can't complain All this pain and suffering was caused by me On my fucking knees Distrust had clouded my judgment and pushed me right over the edge Just know that I'm sorry I'm not one to let all the little things get to me and cause me to be a chump Like others Those others I despise Can't justify the wrong things I've done I'll just try to see my side I know now, what I should've known, long ago Better now than never The damage is already done Conscience falls away Self-worth, left to gain Why can't you see that I'm trying? Trying to right the mistakes in my life Why can't you see that I'm dying? Dying inside You tore my soul apart Why can't you see that I'm trying? Trying to rid myself of this sickness Why can't you see that I'm dying? Dying inside You ripped my fucking heart out I'm down on my knees The sickness burns Why can't you see that I'm trying? I'm trying so hard I'm trying so hard now Why can't you see that I'm dying? Dying inside The pressure's so hard now Why can't you see that I'm trying? Trying to do the things that I have to Why can't you see that I've died? I've died each time I hurt you in any way There's nothing to say, but I'm sorry I beg I beg you to stay Please, don't go away Can't deal with the pain I'm lonely So lonely Be brave The soul It falls apart Alone It's so hard to know just what you want The soul wants what it wants Ego, won't settle for less than a perfect thought The soul It falls apart Alone It's so hard to know just what you want The soul wants what it wants Ego, won't settle for less than a perfect thought Won't settle for less than a perfect start Won't settle for less than what's perfection The cycle repeats Staring into the night sky I see reflections of grief and I wonder why Why the sun doesn't shine down on people like me? I can't help but think that it's all because the soul, it falls apart Alone It's so hard to know just what you want The soul wants what it wants Ego, won't settle for less than a perfect thought The soul It falls apart Alone It's so hard to know just what you want The soul wants what it wants Ego, won't settle for less than a perfect thought Won't settle for less than a perfect start Won't settle for less than what's perfection
9.	Absence 04:19	info	buy track
10.	Lost All Hope 04:15	lyrics	buy track
A dark, shadowy grave Forming lifeless boundaries All of this time I wasted Falling for loves I've tasted I mourn Between these worlds I'm torn Why is it me, always at risk? Why can't I be safe for a minute? In this world I trust, not a fucking thing Too many times I lust Dying for a cause All my hope is lost Insides spilling out Too many loves I've lost Dwelling on the pain I've lost everything Now you bleed for me You bleed Say you'll bleed for me, yeah And now I close my eyes And I dream Slow death, creeping low Fall for my own lies And so, I return to the place I came from All alone Yeah The feeling is gone Cries and deafening screams of torment haunt my soul No more Hoping for someone to make me happy and erase the pain No more Depending on others to bring me closer to destiny No more Counting on broken promises to clear the slate clean No more No more A dark shadow, erased A dark shadow All of this time I wasted Answers nowhere to be found I've lost grip on what’s right from wrong
11.	For This I Bleed [Edit] 02:57	lyrics	buy track
Counterfeit All you fools make me sick You're nothing, but dumb-shits You're all lost in reality Searching for acceptance from morons Putting on a front For what? You're masquerading, fucking wannabes Pussy-shits releasing weak-ass hits Millions of bucks and chicks The mainstream is a monopoly No room for those who are reaching for Spilling guts on the floor In this joke, the music industry Denying doubt Pursuing dreams Turned inside out A harrowing scream Living for a hope not lost before Nor will it ever become a lost, fucking fantasy 'Cause I will try to live my fucking life knowing I never lied to myself about what's real to me It'll never fail My longing for the day When our music's played Our everlasting integrity Denying doubt Pursuing dreams Turned inside out A harrowing scream Fucking blind labels' greed Left behind For this I bleed Do you believe in fate? Well, do you? Fucking weak-ass songs plague the airwaves Fucking nauseating noise played I'm wondering how it came to be Fuck it all Yeah, fuck them all Say fuck you all Now fuck you Fake-ass pricks Just come suck this dick and fucking swallow it You retarded, confused, shallow breed On your knees Bow to this gratefully Maybe you'll finally see that your style ain’t shit You're a wannabe Your identity is a mystery You are not real to me You're undeserving of my sympathy Apathy equals non-conformity A threat to majority Helping instigate brutality For this I bleed
12.	Dying Eyes 05:01	lyrics	buy track
And they died The look in their eyes Unconscious surprise Unknown terror It's concrete in their eyes They were taken Death's form in children What were they thinking? Not a Goddamn thing They were gravely mistaken Mistaken Fucking cowards There are no words to describe the void that you left inside Your lives In vain Your minds Insane What made you think you had the fucking right? What the fuck? You had no fucking right Taken Un-living Past forgiving A place on earth that we can call hell But we're lucky enough to call it home Fucking pussies Two minds, so weak What made them think they'd accomplish a thing? I'm sorry to the victims and their families We all share in your grief Weak-minded motherfuckers Dying Eyes How could this be? This can't be happening to me My mind's now free Eternal serenity Fucking freaks My mouth can't scream I can't let these fucks take my life from me But if I can hold on, I might make it to see another day Crouched on the floor Horrors outside the door I am numb to everything, except complete fear I turned to God that day I looked for His help that day In hopes that I could go away Just go away and see my family But know some died A whole world cried They lost their precious lives for nothing What's so wrong, that our young think they have to kill to be heard at all? Fucking why have innocent died? We're truly sorry Respect to you and our love to you And we hope that you make it through But fuck those two that fucking put you through insane shit that you should have never had to go through Weak-minded motherfuckers
13.	I'm Not Much (At All) 05:18	lyrics	buy track
You're lovely Send chills through me And as time passes, you'll forget me 'Cause I'm nothing I'm nothing I'm not much, at all Don't want me Don't look at me Just through me 'Cause I'm used to it It's my most precious gift to you 'Cause I'm nothing, yeah I’m nothing, yeah And I'm not much I’m not much, at all Don't leave me, please Don't even care to get to know me You could be everything to me But I'll always be nothing Nothing Nothing Nothing You're lovely And I wish that I could be something to you Instead I'm nothing, yeah I'm nothing Yeah and I'm not much I’m not much, at all I'm nothing You're lovely I'm nothing You're lovely So very lovely So very lovely
14.	Away 04:49	lyrics	buy track
It hurt me greatly on that day I paid to give part of me away It was fucked up I'm fucked up I threw you away Away On that sad day, part of me died My child is gone It hurt me inside Such a selfish thing What if it was me? Now I know I'm wrong You'll never know me Such a wrong thing Suddenly everything's gray Gray Come back 'cause I'm empty I helped to kill a precious being Thrown out Away I'm so full of doubt It turned me inside out I'm such a worthless creep Dark feelings come over me Now I'm incomplete I love you I miss you What a horrible thing that I've done Oh, please come back to me I'm sorry for the fucked up thing that I've done to you I'll never be the same An unconscionable Unreasonable Incomprehensible Fucked up thing that I've done Oh, please come back to me I'm sorry I should have never fucked up this bad and at your expense No What was I thinking? A beautiful thing, I took it and threw it away I feel incomplete Will you ever forgive me? I can't help but think that maybe I'll meet you one day I'm sorry to my beautiful, dead offspring Forgive me That's it That's all I can say Away So wrong So wrong
15.	The Inspiration 01:05	info	buy track

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Compilation of 'B.R.O.K.E.N.' and 'Apathetic Feelings For A Pathetic World' releases with samples removed. Ripped directly from the studio Masters.

Line-up:
Brian Ortiz Jr. - Vocals
Dru Majors - Guitars
Tino Romero - Bass
Elan Schwartz - Drums, Keyboards

credits

released February 27, 2007

B.R.O.K.E.N:
Recorded, engineered, and mastered by Dave Otero at Hellion Studios. Boulder, CO. July, 2003
Produced and mixed by Apathy and Dave Otero
All music written, arranged, and performed by Apathy except 'Last Breath' & "Premonitions of Winter', written and arranged by Apathy and Miro Shulla
All lyrics by Brian Ortiz Jr.
Copyright 2003

Apathetic Feelings For A Pathetic World:
Recorded, engineered, and mastered by Dave Otero at Hellion Studios. Boulder, CO. July, 2001
Produced and mixed by Apathy and Dave Otero
All music written, arranged, and performed by Apathy except 'Lost All Hope' & 'For This I Bleed', written and arranged by Apathy and Miro Shulla
All lyrics by Brian Ortiz Jr.
Copyright 2001

B.R.O.A.P.W. Compilation:
Logo created by Brian Ortiz Jr., designed by Tino Romero
Artwork by Tino Romero
Statue photography: Jenn Clark
Band photography: Joe McKinney
Layout: Nick Jackson
Manufactured and Distributed by Fist Music/ Hapi Skratch Music
All Rights Reserved. ASCAP (-APATHY-)
Copyright 2007